Ok ya'll here's the deal. My parents have become a bit more evil as of late and have told me that I'm not allowed to write depressing poetry anymore. Thus I have to remove any and all poetry from their sight. I'm gonna leave this up but since I can't write anymore...nothing new will be posted. I'm trying to work it out with them, but they don't seem to be budging. Due to all of this I'm taking all of the poems I've written (that I haven't destroyed) and printing them on some cool paper to give to those who appriciate the darker side of life. It might take me a while as I'm not allowed to touch my paychecks, and will have to be scrounging around for the money to do this. So sorry for the inconveniance, but its the way it all has to be done.

Foreboding gloom

Looming all around

This ray of light

Bright with hope

So in this moment

I’am peaceful

My life wears down

So thin upon

This paper

A lost love

A lucid dream

Your face

Swimming in

My memories

Hope you’re happy

For I am numb

Lying in this gloom

 

He's on my mind, but I don't know why. I want to forget him, but he made me what I am today. I'm not going to ask for forgivness. I don't deserve it.

Slash of metal

Cry of nerves

A trickle of blood

My biggest release

Metallic splinters

Ripping forth

Creating a gash

To let loose my joy

This is my release

 

Pretty in pink

Happy with life

You love the way you are

Don’t understand

How this cut

Makes me yield

My thoughts of death

Yet you do not see

This release

 

Stand back and smile

The fake smile

You show me every day

Don’t really care

About my scars

Don’t really care

About anything

Self-centered

And I thank you

 

Naïve love

Flourishing in daylight

Lusting for darkness

Something holds you back

Won’t let you

Hide in a corner

Won’t let you touch that blade

That has helped me so

Will not let you feel

My release

 

Blazing heat

Coursing my veins

Oh I hate

The sight of your face

You placed a heavy burden

Upon my soul

Tormented me

Until I broke down

Cut my wrists

Bleed out everything

I had for you

I let you win

You fuel my release

 

Again the blade comes down

Time after hurtful time!

This hate tears me

This blade tears more

Why couldn’t I live?!

Why wouldn’t you leave?

Suffering and pain

Wrong in your eyes

 

The droplets slow

My energy

Running low

My breath

Pacing with my heart

Slower, and slower

And all I see

Is your fake smile

Inside my head

Watching my release

Watching me die

 

 

These are my scars
I love my scars

Blinding tears

Acidic taste

Flows to my mouth

To make me weak

Vulnerable to all

Persistence to stop

Hurt to continue

 

Memories cause me pain

Been here

Seen this

And you say

“been here”

“seen this”

“not like last time”

Your words burn me

To my core

So I cry

Alone in the corner

 

Throw you at my feet

Acidic tears burning my face

Say you are sorry

Say you love me

Even though I make mistakes

Can’t you see?

All I ever wanted

Was to be alone

And now you come

Tear me apart

Creating these acidic tears

Again

Greedy lust

He wanted her

Vicious grin

Evil intent

Upon her innocent soul

She loves him

Used her for all he could

Preyed upon her body

Soul

And mind

Filthy deeds to use

Yet he moves with such grace

To tear her apart

Abandon her

When she set him free

She deserved it

She wronged him

Yet should she be made

To suffer so

All days long

Tired words

Wear her down

To the very bone of hate

Pitting all against

So that she has no one

Believe your lies

I know you will

Human faults

Lead to human lies

He said

They believe in his

Greedy lust

And vicious grin

Slipping down

Further into the depths

Of your eyes

Soft and grey

To take my breath away

Like the ‘morn dew

Upon the misty river

A sense of lust

Drifting among

Lost loves

How I wish

To experience all of you

Past your soft grey eyes

Long to hold you close

But you’ve moved

So far away from me

So when the time comes

And I

Slip down

Into the depths

Of your grey eyes

I wish to remain there

For all time

 

 

A breeze

To take my breath away

A star

To light my way

A smile

To remind me of the day

You left me

Gone astray

Hate and deceive me

Just the way you please

So I remain alone

Forgotten

And tossed aside

My companionship

Not enough

To satisfy

The ache in your soul

So you hurt me

It brought you pleasure

To see me squirm

Seething hate for me

While I cry

So now I walk

Alone on the beach

Not a tear

Lingers on my face

For I will not cry for me

The breeze

Chills me to the bone

The star

Covered by the clouds

And a smile

To take my soul away

Tucked in

Tall walls

Out of sight

Hidden

Lurking shadows

Defend

My castle

Protecting my soul

Protecting my pride

Still they throw

Fiery words

Molten lies

Tearing at my walls

Breaking my castle

Try in vain

To hold them at bay

But their hateful words

Always break through

They rip me apart

And leave

Just as quickly

As them came

Leaving me to bleed

Dying on the floor

Yet I will not let them

See my tears

Time comes again

I rise up

Re-build my walls

Keep fighting

With no purpose

But to fight the fight

To loose the war

But to say I fought

To keep my castle

To keep my pride

Scorching heat

Paralyzing my flesh

Locking my jaw

Tearing me apart

Phoenix fire

Burning my soul

Melting these chains

Setting free

My enslaved soul

Been under

Your rule too long

The time has come

I will spread my wings

Choose my own path

Fly away

Phoenix

Take flight

Never look back

Done with these rules

Done with you

Staring down on me so

I will be

What I choose to be

And not what you make me

Molten metal

Laying at my feet

Wind catching my wings

Fly away

Phoenix